Yet again, my new experience came from an unexpected place this week. I lost my temper. I mean, full on screaming, yelling, crazy woman losing my temper. I will not go into the details but the end result was very surprising... I feel better than I have in a long time. All that repressed, pent up crap came raging out of me and now, I can't stop smiling. I feel so free and so light, as if a weight has been lifted from my shoulders. I don't necessarily think what I did was right, but man, it was needed.
I jog 3 miles a day in an attempt to release all this crap, but apparently it wasn't working. I will need to find a more appropriate way to find this same release I feel now. I had no idea how heavy the stuff I had been carrying around had been until it was gone. There really isn't anything like total release of all your anger. My anxiety and concern for every minor detail is gone, replaced by a neutrality that is a refreshing and welcome break.
